3 of Dec Worst contradiction

U come and u go..
Gv me hope and gv me nth..
I wish but Im afraid of..
I couldnt say anything...
But I really wish I can forget it...

''Ask you a questions ar..''
''Its out of curiosity''
My heart was beating so fast..
And Im thinking..
How shud I reply..
If you confess out ur feeling to me..?
''Why are we so cold''
Im sweating like hell..
Lucky u nvr said anything...
If not I really dono wad I gonna reply u..
Sorry =(

I dono wad shud I do..
If tat day reali do happen..
I dono wat m I thinking now..
I wish bt I dun wish too..
Its the worst contradiction tat I hv nvr taste b4..
No idea..

U nvr reply..
And I did reply..
Again..
U nvr reply...
And soon status shows busy..
Well..
Fine...
Rather don chat anymore..
I really dono how to chat like b4 ad...

I couldnt forget..
The day Kai Ru scolded you..
And Im finding one place to hide on myself..
Its too embarrassing..
I jz feel disgusting when I think back everything..
You laugh you talk..
I dono why will I feel so disgusting..
I'm really sorry...

Hope so..
Im not the one in ur heart now..
I hope..
Is I being so perasan n too sensitive..
And I wont dissapointed if it happened..
If it really happens..
Sorry..
My answer may b will be NO again...
Really sorry...=(

After SPM..
Please..
Dont do anything..
I wish I wish....
I will soon forget you =)